would it be alright if i didn't try

i have been so eager to not try, lately. i feel like such a slacker. I just feel a little disoriented and disorganized, my life seems to have become so hectic lately. I'm just not used to this! I keep thinking, "where did all my time go"? I remember when i used to have too much time and I would write letters and read books and keep up with my correspondence, but i haven't had much time for those things lately.

But, back to the not trying thing... so, yeah, i just don't feel like accomplishing much of anything, i'm just kind of gliding along without really having a clear direction. Very unwise, i know, but this is just how i am right now. So unmotivated and maybe a little depressed.. which is always the culprit behind my messy room and unkempt appearance. Everything is moving so quickly, and i just haven't had the time to catch-up.. i feel a little lost which makes me even less willing to try. I'm lazy. If i were an animal I would be a hibernating bear.